Something happened to you. The marriage ended, or the job did, or your faith did, or the version of yourself you had been performing for a decade just stopped working. The worst of it is behind you now. But you are not fine. You are not the old you. You are not the new you. You are in between — restless, raw, oddly curious about things you have never cared about before. There is a word for this exact place. Medieval alchemists called it viriditas. Jung knew the word. He did not make it central. That was a mistake.
What the Alchemists Actually Meant
Before going further. Nigredo, and every other frame in this article, is a way of describing an experience. It is not a diagnosis and it cannot tell you whether you are unwell. Depression is a medical condition and it responds to treatment. If you are not sleeping or eating, if you cannot function, if this has lasted weeks, or if you are having thoughts of harming yourself, that is a reason to speak to a doctor now rather than to read on. Working with a therapist alongside this material is not a failure of the process. It is often what makes the process survivable.
Viriditas is Latin for greenness. Not green as a colour — green as a force. The life-force in a seed that splits concrete to reach light. The twelfth-century abbess and mystic Hildegard of Bingen used it constantly. For her, viriditas was the animating energy underneath all living things. When it was present, things grew. When it was absent, they withered. She wrote about it in her medical texts, her theological works, and her music. It was not a metaphor for her. It was a biological and spiritual fact, as real as heat.
In alchemical manuscripts, viriditas named a specific colour change the alchemist watched for in the vessel. After the blackening — the nigredo, the total dissolution of the original material — a faint green would sometimes appear before the whitening set in. It was brief. It was easy to miss. But experienced practitioners read it as a sign: something is alive in here. The work is not dead matter. It is moving.
That green moment had a psychological meaning the alchemists were only half-articulating. It named the first stirring of new form after the old form had fully collapsed. Not recovery. Not return. Something genuinely new, pushing through ground that was recently burned.
Why Jung's Four Stages Are Incomplete
Jung built his model of psychological transformation around four alchemical stages: nigredo (blackening, collapse), albedo (whitening, clarity), citrinitas (yellowing, the dawning of new orientation), and rubedo (reddening, full integration). If you want the full map, the article on Jung and individuation walks through each one. The sequence is real and useful. But it jumps a gap.
Between nigredo and albedo — between the bottom of the collapse and the first real clarity — there is a period the four-stage model does not name. You are no longer in the worst of it. But you are not clear yet. The old self has dissolved and the new one has not taken shape. Jung's model moves past this threshold without stopping. Viriditas is what stops there.
The green lion devours the sun — and from that consumption, something alive emerges that was not there before.
— The Midnight Alchemist, describing the green-lion image of the Rosarium and Splendor Solis. Not a translation of eitherJung engaged with Hildegard's viriditas in passing. In his work on the Mysterium Coniunctionis he noted the green as a colour of Venus, of new life, of the anima's generative pull. But he never built it into the sequence as its own stage. Scholars who came after him — particularly Barbara Obrist, who mapped medieval colour symbolism in alchemical texts — documented how widely viriditas appeared across manuscript traditions as a distinct transitional marker. Jung's four stages follow a more linear Latin tradition. The green stage belongs to a broader, messier, and arguably more honest account of how transformation actually moves.
"The green colour of Venus…points to the growth and development of psychic life."
— C.G. Jung, Mysterium Coniunctionis, CW 14, §398
What This Feels Like From the Inside
You probably know this territory already. The crisis has passed its acute phase. People around you think you should be feeling better. You are not sure what you are feeling. There is grief still, but underneath it something strange — a pull toward things you have never done, ideas you have never had space to think, a quietness you are oddly protective of. You do not want to fill the space yet. That instinct is not avoidance. It is intelligence.
The brain during this window is doing something measurable. When a person's sense of self is disrupted — by divorce, job loss, major illness, or a belief system collapsing — the default mode network (the brain's system for self-referential thought, first described by Raichle et al., 2001) becomes less stable. Activity patterns that held a fixed self-concept in place begin to loosen. Research by Denny et al. (2012) found that self-referential processing shifts significantly during periods of identity disruption, with the medial prefrontal cortex showing altered engagement. In plain terms: the brain is between versions of you. It is genuinely rebuilding, not stalling.
Denny et al. (2012) used neuroimaging to show that self-referential processing — the brain's work of answering "who am I?" — is not fixed. During periods of significant identity change, the medial prefrontal cortex, which anchors self-concept, shows measurably different activity patterns. This suggests that what feels like psychological instability after a major loss is, at least in part, the brain actively reorganising its model of the self. The green stage is structural, not merely emotional.
Viriditas in psychological terms is that reorganisation window. It is fragile because new structures are not yet load-bearing. It is generative because the old constraints that shaped the previous self are temporarily gone. This is why people in this state often feel simultaneously lost and strangely open. Both are accurate. The openness is not wishful thinking. It is what a brain in reconstruction actually feels like.
This also explains why rushing it causes damage. People in viriditas are often pressured — by themselves or others — to arrive somewhere. To have a plan. To be okay. Forcing premature closure on a self that is still forming does not accelerate the process. It interrupts it. The alchemist's instruction was to watch the vessel, not to force the colour. That is still the right instruction.
How to Work With It, Not Against It
Viriditas is not a technique. There is nothing to do with it except not destroy it. But there are things that help it move.
The first is staying in contact with what is actually alive in you right now — not what used to interest you, not what you think should interest you. The green stage tends to carry small, specific signals: a book you keep picking up, a question you keep returning to, a skill you want to learn for no obvious reason. These are not distractions. They are data. The new self is forming around them.
The second is resisting the pressure to perform recovery. Burnout and nigredo is one pattern that precedes viriditas. The temptation after a collapse is to prove to others — and yourself — that you have come through it cleanly. That performance seals the vessel before the green has fully emerged. The alchemists were clear on this: premature fixation ruins the work.
The third, and hardest, is tolerating the ambiguity. Not knowing who you are becoming is not a problem to fix. It is the condition under which genuine change can happen. Jung understood this in principle, even if his four stages did not fully name it. The self that emerges from a real transformation is not a repaired version of the old self. It is something that could only have formed through the dissolution.
Hildegard of Bingen wrote that viriditas was what made humans capable of change at all. Without it, she said, we become dry — fixed, rigid, unable to respond to what life asks of us. The green is not a stage to pass through quickly. It is a capacity to protect.
If you are in this place right now — half-emerged, not yet formed, not sure what you are becoming — you are not behind. You are in the most alive part of the process. The green is already there. The question is only whether you will let it grow.
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Frequently Asked Questions
What is viriditas in alchemy?
Viriditas is Latin for "greenness." In medieval alchemy it named a specific stage between the blackening of nigredo and the reddening of rubedo — a period of raw, fragile new growth. The twelfth-century abbess and mystic Hildegard of Bingen, who was not an alchemist, used the word to mean life-force itself: the vital green energy that pushes through after something has died back. It is not recovery. It is the first, tentative shoot of something that has never existed before.
Why did Jung leave viriditas out of his four stages?
Jung organised alchemical transformation into four stages — nigredo, albedo, citrinitas, rubedo — drawing mainly on texts that followed that arc. Viriditas appeared most prominently in Hildegard of Bingen's work and in scattered manuscript traditions Jung engaged with less closely. He does discuss the green — he links it to Venus and to the life of the Self in Mysterium Coniunctionis — but he never gives it a stage of its own. It also resists easy mapping onto a linear sequence, which may be why it never anchored his model. His focus stayed on the movement from darkness to light, not the green threshold between them.
What does viriditas feel like psychologically?
It feels like being half-alive. The worst is over, but you are not well yet. Old certainties are gone and the new self has not fully formed. You might feel restless, oddly curious about things you never cared about before, or strangely protective of your own quiet. That pull toward something new — even when you cannot name it — is viriditas. It is biological as much as symbolic: the brain is genuinely rebuilding its sense of self during this window.
How is viriditas different from the albedo stage?
Albedo — the whitening — is about clarification. The soot of nigredo settles and you can see more clearly what you are and what you are not. Viriditas comes before that clarity, not after it. It sits at the hinge between nigredo and albedo: the first active growth, while things are still dark. Albedo is still; viriditas moves. Think of viriditas as the first green pushing through the burnt ground, and albedo as the clear light in which you can finally see what grew. Both are necessary. They are not the same moment.
Can viriditas happen more than once in a life?
Yes. The alchemical stages were never meant to be a one-time sequence. Each significant loss or identity collapse — a divorce, a career ending, a faith shifting — can cycle back through nigredo and, if the person stays with the process rather than fleeing it, forward into a new viriditas. Some people experience it several times across a life. Each green stage is different because the person who enters it is different.
Academic sources cited in this article:
- Jung, C.G. (1963). Mysterium Coniunctionis: An Inquiry into the Separation and Synthesis of Psychic Opposites in Alchemy (Collected Works, Vol. 14). Routledge & Kegan Paul. find in a library
- Hildegard of Bingen (1150/1998). Cause et Cure, trans. P. Madigan. Pegasus Press. [On viriditas as animating life-force in medieval natural philosophy.] find in a library
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- Raichle, M.E., MacLeod, A.M., Snyder, A.Z., Powers, W.J., Gusnard, D.A., & Shulman, G.L. (2001). A default mode of brain function. Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences, 98(2), 676–682. doi:10.1073/pnas.98.2.676
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