You got the thing. The promotion, the move, the practice, the new country, the life after the marriage ended. On paper it is exactly what you worked for. And in the room, in the meeting, at the dinner, some part of you is quietly aware that you are doing an impression of the person who belongs there.
The usual explanation is imposter syndrome, and it is usually wrong. There is a better-documented account, and it comes from research on people doing precisely what you are doing.
What the research actually found
In 1999, Herminia Ibarra published a study of professionals moving into senior roles — investment bankers and consultants making the step up, watched closely through the transition. She was looking for how professional identity actually changes.
It does not change the way people assume. There is no moment of arrival, no internal click where you become the new thing. What Ibarra observed was slower and stranger: people assembled the new identity by experiment. They watched people already in the role, borrowed specific fragments — a way of opening a meeting, a manner of disagreeing, a posture toward authority — tried those fragments in real situations, and then kept or discarded them based on what came back.
She called these trial versions provisional selves. The word is doing real work. They are drafts. Most are meant to be thrown away. The idea builds on work by Markus and Nurius (1986), who showed that we all carry a set of possible selves — the versions we might become, fear becoming, or hope to become — and that these shape what we actually do next.
Which means the period you are in — where the old self does not fit and the new one has not formed — is not the gap between the process and the result. It is the process. You are not failing to become the new person. You are in the part where becoming happens, and it happens in public, badly, with an audience.
Why it feels like fraud specifically
The fraudulent feeling has a precise source. During the experiment you are, factually, performing a version of yourself you have not finished earning internally. You are doing the thing before you feel like the thing. That is not a character flaw; it is what a provisional self is.
And the feeling is not information about your competence. The record — the appointment, the results, the decision that put you there — is separate from the self-image, and the two move at different speeds. That difference is worth naming precisely, because it decides what helps. Imposter syndrome says the record is false, so the treatment is evidence. This is the other thing: the record is fine and the self-image is simply behind it. More evidence does nothing, because evidence was never the missing piece. It is a timing problem, and we call it identity lag.
Why other people keep you in the old version
There is a second force, and it is the one people rarely account for: the people around you are invested in the self you already were.
Swann's work on self-verification found that people actively seek feedback confirming their existing self-concept — and will prefer partners and contexts that confirm it even when the confirmation is unflattering (Swann, Stein-Seroussi and Giesler, 1992). Being known, it turns out, competes with being seen accurately. A consistent wrong model beats an uncertain correct one.
Run that outward and the transition gets harder to explain. Your old colleagues, your family, the friend who has known you since university — they hold a settled picture of you, and they will keep handing it back. Every conversation that treats you as the person you were is a small vote against the person you are assembling. None of it is malice. It is just that your self-model changed and nobody else got the update.
What the people in the study actually did
Three moves recur in Ibarra's account, and they are unglamorous.
They watched role models in detail, and borrowed narrowly. Not "be like her" — that produces imitation and collapses the moment the situation differs. The useful move was granular: how does she handle the part where someone challenges the number? What specifically does she do in the first ninety seconds? Fragments transfer. Whole personalities do not.
They tried things in public, not in private. The experiment only returns data if there is a real room and a real response. Rehearsing a self in your head produces nothing to evaluate, and this is the point where most people stall: waiting to feel ready before acting, when the feeling is downstream of the acting.
They judged the result against their own standard, not only the applause. External feedback tells you whether it landed. It does not tell you whether it was you. Both readings are needed, and people who used only the second drifted into a performance that worked and felt hollow — a persona that fits the room and not the person. That is its own problem, and we have written about the mask that fuses.
The in-between has a name
This stage was described long before anyone studied bankers. In 1909 the ethnographer Arnold van Gennep showed that rites of passage across many cultures share three parts: you are separated from the old status, you spend time in a middle state belonging to neither, and you are then brought back in with the new one. Victor Turner later called that middle state liminal, from the Latin for threshold — you are standing in the doorway, out of one room and not yet in the next.
William Bridges brought the same shape into ordinary life and called it the neutral zone: the stretch after something ends and before the next thing starts. His point is the useful one. We treat that stretch as dead time to be hurried through. It is where the actual change happens.
Three separate fields, looking at initiation rites, at career moves, and at ordinary endings, arrive at the same structure. The middle is not a delay before the transition. It is the transition.
The honest limits
Three, because this is the kind of finding that gets stretched.
Ibarra's study was qualitative — close observation and interviews with a specific population, professionals in investment banking and consulting, going through a particular kind of step up. It describes a pattern richly. It is not a controlled trial, it does not establish cause, and it cannot tell you the pattern holds identically for a nurse, a founder, or someone rebuilding after a divorce. The mechanism is plausible across those; the evidence was not gathered there.
Second, there is no duration in it. The study did not measure how long the in-between lasts, so any article giving you a number has made the number up. Organisations often allow six to eighteen months for a senior transition, which is a useful sense of scale and not a finding.
Third, none of this is treatment. If the flatness has become something that stops you sleeping, eating or functioning, or has run for weeks, that is a doctor rather than a framework. A transition that has turned into depression is a different thing and responds to different help.
The alchemical reading
The old alchemists had a name for the stage after everything dissolves and before anything is integrated. Not the blackening, which is the collapse, and not the reddening, which is the completion — the long, pale middle they called albedo: washed, clarified, and not yet anything.
Jung spent much of his career on this, and gave the whole arc a name: individuation, the long process of becoming the person you actually are rather than the one you were handed (Jung, 1953). The middle stage is an unnervingly good description of where a transition actually puts you. The old material is gone. The new form has not set. And the instruction in every one of those texts is the same instruction the research arrives at four centuries later: you cannot skip it, and the work of that stage is not to feel finished but to keep going while unfinished.
You are not failing to become who you are now. You are in the part where that happens.
The gold was always there
The practice this writing comes from. Three quiet moments a day, in your own voice — and an archive that becomes evidence you cannot argue with.
- I · MORNING
- II · MIDDAY
- III · EVENING
Prime
Your own voice, speaking the person you are becoming.
Act
One aligned action, logged while it is still true.
Release
The Shadow Log — say what the day asked of you.
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References
- Ibarra, H. (1999) 'Provisional selves: experimenting with image and identity in professional adaptation', Administrative Science Quarterly, 44(4), pp. 764–791. doi:10.2307/2667055
- Swann, W.B., Stein-Seroussi, A. and Giesler, R.B. (1992) 'Why people self-verify', Journal of Personality and Social Psychology, 62(3), pp. 392–401. doi:10.1037/0022-3514.62.3.392
- Markus, H. and Nurius, P. (1986) 'Possible selves', American Psychologist, 41(9), pp. 954–969. doi:10.1037/0003-066X.41.9.954
- van Gennep, A. (1960) The Rites of Passage. Translated by M.B. Vizedom and G.L. Caffee. Chicago: University of Chicago Press. (Originally published in French, 1909.) find in a library
- Turner, V. (1969) The Ritual Process: Structure and Anti-Structure. Chicago: Aldine. find in a library
- Bridges, W. (2004) Transitions: Making Sense of Life's Changes. 2nd edn. Cambridge, MA: Da Capo Press. find in a library
- Jung, C.G. (1953) Two Essays on Analytical Psychology. Translated by R.F.C. Hull. Collected Works vol. 7. Princeton: Princeton University Press. find in a library
Frequently asked questions
Why do I feel like a fraud after getting the job I wanted?
Because the role arrived before the self-image did. Ibarra (1999) followed professionals through senior transitions and found that people do not step into a new identity fully formed — they assemble it by experiment, in public, over months. During that stretch you are genuinely performing a version of yourself you have not finished becoming. That feels like fraud, but it is the documented middle of the process rather than evidence you were wrongly appointed.
What are ‘provisional selves’?
Ibarra’s term for the trial versions of a professional identity people construct during a transition. You borrow fragments from people you admire, try them in real situations, watch what happens, and keep what fits. It is closer to fitting a suit than to flipping a switch. The word provisional matters: these are drafts, and most of them are meant to be discarded.
How long does a career-change identity crisis last?
Longer than people expect, and there is no clean number. Organisations commonly allow six to eighteen months for a senior transition, and the self-concept does not move faster than the role does. Ibarra’s study was qualitative and did not measure a duration, so treat any precise figure you read as invention. What the research does support is that the awkward middle is a stage, not a verdict.
Is this the same as imposter syndrome?
No, and the difference decides what helps. Imposter syndrome says the record is a fraud, so the remedy is evidence. Here the record is solid and the self-image simply has not caught up — more evidence changes nothing, because evidence was never the missing piece. One is a confidence gap. The other is a timing gap.
What actually helps during the in-between?
Three things Ibarra observed people doing: watching role models closely enough to borrow specific behaviours rather than whole personalities; trying those behaviours in real situations instead of rehearsing them privately; and judging the results against your own standards, not only against applause. What does not help is waiting to feel ready first. The feeling follows the experiment, not the other way round.